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teh teh can say im wrong
teh teh can say im silly
teh teh can scold me
but damn that fucker is fucked


u wan a child u can see every single day,
get a dog as ure child
it wil beg as u wish
sa jiao no matter its age
be loyal
love u for th food
and be thr for u EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY
it wun care if its alone or whatever fucked up shit
GET A MOTHER FUCKING DOG ==


im angry.
fucked up even.
that man wun let me celeb my 3rd mth
saying we re jus kids
fuck him larh ==
totally pissed


sometimes i jus wish u would express urself more to me.
open up to me
am i nt good enugh for u to trust?
if u dunnoe hw to express a simple im happy or not will do.
im sick of this
im tired of this.
goddamn it


好像缺了一塊 再拼不回來 比空白更空白 每一次我想起來 其實你都還在 藍色悲哀 流過我的靜脈 我不要愛 可是我離不開 假面的告白 不坦白的坦白 你不會愛 你只愛接受愛 眼睛睜不開 看不到未來 也哭不出來 好像碎了一塊 再補不回來 被時間活埋 從盛開到腐壞 然後愛 從潔白到蒼白從蒼白到塵埃 我想離開 可是我還期待 對自己 不坦白 你不會愛 我害怕接受愛 把兩手張開 抓不到未來 有你的未來 好像碎了得一塊 再補不回來 再不存在 我想起來 其實你都還在 濃的悲哀 化不開
if nobody understands, i dun rly care
maybe gor is right.
i cant love.
i never will learn
im just a player
i wil never be a lover.
i cant be.
i wil never be.
i love him.
but yet i hurt him more then i care for him.
if i let go,
i will hurt him alot
but then short pain better then long pain right?
how silly
it will leave a scar
someone told me,
that the words above are all bullshit
im capable of loving.
but then again.
in 7yrs i have nt cried.
is like in this yr suddenly i learn hw to cry since the death of my brother
and all at once i keep crying.
over th smallest of arguements
over th thought of losing him
yes im silly
yes im fucked up
and there is nobody to save me.
not now not ever
i dont even noe if anybody wil read this
i dont rly care
i hate myself more then ever now
why is it that my bro died and not me?
why not me?


imy ppl.
candy is damn fucking bored.


long tym no post.
i like feeling really sad nw.
tmr th kukus re gonna go to camp
onli me left
feel like hell
roarrr
im gonna miss them like shit.
hais.
damn kukurians
i love u all





1. Are you going to be completely honest and open?
Yes! {: im a good girl
2. Fell asleep in the arms of the opposite sex?
yeah.
3. Ever physically fought with a member of the opposite sex?
DUH! i fought, and i won. it was.. cute. lots of blood. DAMN CUTE!
4. Ever sang to the person you liked?
i sing when i feel like it
5. Is there anyone who likes you?
NEH~! EVERYBODY LOVES ME!
6. Do you believe ex's can be friends?
depends
7. Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your bed?
other ppl's bed x.x
8. Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
nope. give me my greens and ure my mate.
9. What is/are your favorite color/s?
red purple black white.
10. Are you a shy person?
NEVER!
11. Do you have memories that you want to forget?
if they re my memories, iwun wan to 4get them. i jus wan to change history
12. Are you happy?
i have a boyfwen, i have my kuku fam, i have venus smiling and i have $(for nw).
13. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
let my baby ans tt {:
14. Do you hate seeing happy couples?
depends.
15. If you went to jail, who would bail you out?
Whyever would I be in jail? (junie say de)
16. How tall are you?
156. i noe im short, but i look so fucking good.
17. When was the last time you were actually happy?
laughters
18. How long does it take you in the morning to fix your hair?
15mins
19. Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
yeah. chicken pox. fainted cos cannt tahan th ugliness
20. Have you ever wondered how they make lines in toothpaste?
yeah... amazing
21. Do you ever feel curious about how people see you?
i love me. tts all i care. i dun care abt ppl inferior to me
22. Do you find smoking unattractive?
Yeah.
23. Who was your crush in 5th grade?
I'll take it as primary 5. lets see... bryan and douglas.
24. What is your biggest fear about making a total commitment to someone?
i would be bored.
25. Have you ever suspected anyone cheating on you?
how abt he got dumped? get th hint?
26. Are you someone who worries too often?
yawns. no way
27. Could things possibly get any better?
idk
28. What can you currently hear?
Songs on my latest round-the-top playlist.
rdm de.
29. What's the last pinkie promise you made, and to who?
venus. i 4got
30. Is there anyone home?
Whole family is.
31. The person you fell hardest for died today, how would you feel?
nth. numb to death le. i wil smile at th coffin ,kiss th person i lovec and say good bye. seen u soon. in like 60 yrs. laugh. and touch his face, dhen walk away. with style...
32. Something tragic just happened, does your facial expression show it?
D:
33. Do you miss someone?
Yes. D:
34. So, what do you want for your birthday?
another swimsuit. a pair of white heels, a new bag and a KUKU STYLE celeb
35. Does any part of your body hurt right now?
My back TT
36. Would you ever work at McDonalds?
i would rather die dhen serve
37. Are any of your Facebook TOP friends gay/bi/ lesbian?
yeah.
38. Would you care if you saw the person you like, kissing someone else?
tt person would cry. he dunnoe what he's missing out. (hint hint)
39. Did you see a boy today that made you smile?
No. I don't like kids. (junie's ans. i love it)
40. What are you doing tomorrow?
out wif baby
41. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing?
class tee.
42. Do you love anyone right now?
Yes! alot of ppl!
43. Is it easy to make you cry?
tear maybe. i dun do crying. jus like i dun do cat fights. unless u wan to brk a bone or 2, dun touch me.
44. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Yes. A lot of them. {:
45. Were you happy when you woke up?
no fuckingxzx wayxzz
46. Does the person you like, like you back?
If I do know, I wouldn't be single.
47. If any, name a lyric from the song you're listening to?
i must not chase the boys ( jus nice its th title too! )
48. Do you want someone to call you right now?
YEAHHHH
49. If someone liked you right now would you want to know?
Of course I would! {:
50. When was the last time you had butterflies?
cool as a cucumber baby~
51. Did you mean "I love you" when you said it last?
DUHHHHHH!
52. Do you get upset over the opposite sex easily?
yawns. not rly.
53. When you say you don't care do you mean it?
No.
54. What would you do if someone called you handsome/beautiful?
say thanks la. its a fact i cant and wun deny !
55. Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
Yes.
56. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?
KUKUfam in junie's rm. abt ... grandparents {:
57. What's the CD in your player?
dunhave
58. Can you count to ten in more than one language and what language?
English, Chinese, Malay, Hokkien, Cantonese, Japanese


Answer True or False
Q: Kissed someone? T
Q: Been arrested? F
Q: Do you like someone? T
Q: Held a snake? T ( they re cute. damn cute. loveable siol )
Q: Been suspended from school? T ( for climbing over th gate during pri sch)
Q: Sang karaoke? T
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? T
Q: Laughed until you started crying? T
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? F ( i nbr seen snow b4 T.T )
Q: Kissed in the rain? T
Q: Sang in the shower? T
Q: Sat on a roof top? T
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? T ( boys re mean. i was wearing white dudes! u fuckers! but i love u boys anyway)
Q: Broken a bone? T
Q: Shaved your head? T ( baby time. if nw u touch my hair, i skin u. )
Q: Played a prank on someone? T
Q: Shot a gun? T ( poor guy gt shot in th ass )
Q: Donated blood? F
Just be 100% truthful.
LAST PERSON.
1. You hung out with? Kukufam
2. You texted? Jim
3. You were in a car with? Dad
4. Went to the movies with? Kukufam
5. Person you went to shop with? Kukurians ( junie bought me a swimsuit. chio siol )
6. You talked on the phone? Birdie
7. Made you laugh? Kukufam
8. You hugged? Junie! {L ( god noes i love her )
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...
1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Winter
3. Left or Right? Right
4. Sunny or rainy? Rainy
5. Where do you live? Singapore
6. Club or pub? Club
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? Yes!
8. Do you want to get married? an old man hu is fucking rich but has a sickness so he wil die early & i can have his money {:
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl .
10. What time is it? 9.07pm
11. Are you afraid of commitment? Yes.
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? MONEY YOH!
13. Do you cook? Like DUH! ask crystal and rachel hu eats EVERYNIGHT.
14. Current mood? zzzz~
IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...
1. Kissed someone? Yes
2. Sang? Yes
3. Listened to music? Yes
4. Danced? Yes
5. Cried? No
6. Liked someone you can't? No
22 FIRSTS
1.Who was your first prom date? i think it was Ray.. cant rmb
2. Who was your first roommate? erm... cant rmb
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? i dun get drunk when i drink. i can hold it well {:
5. What was your first car? i have alot of toy cars my dears
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? my brothers when i was in pri 2. my heart wil never be whole again.
8. Who was your first grade teacher? Mdm lau
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? T.T nbr been on 1
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? a boy whose name i cant rmb...
11. Who was your first Best Friend? ShuJun
12. Who is your best friend? Venus!
13. Where was your first sleepover? dun rmb
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? nobody. BM dun come find me.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? sms my kukurians
17. First tattoo or piercing? piercing. pri3 or 4
18. First celebrity crush? xiao zhu
19. First crush? Marcus ( k1. hey what can i say? im an early bloomer. {: he was hot can. he protected me frm bus bullies tt keep fliping my skirt. and held my hand in th bus when we go sch or go home. sweet thing la. kissed him on th cheeks b4 we grat k2. his first kiss was mine. {: as in.. cheek.. he nbr get kissed by any other girl other dhen his moma b4. x.x ) damn i miss him D:


ytd was fun.
went to pool.
played with water.
was fun.
NOT.
tio bullied T.T
post longer nxt tym.
nights~


i dun judge fwens by whr they came form or what they are working as
only how much they re worth being my fwen.
(some is how much i can get frm them)
but believe me i dun judge u.
ure no diff frm others JS. ure you.

ok so i kinda promised a long post.
so here it is!
ok so...
i went to th polyclinic. (pics can see larh)
waited ard 2 hrs plus.
heng jim and junie pei me
spammed junie
it was fun for me
but her fone lag like shit.
LAUGHTER!
dhen we went popeyes to makan
joey and rose joined us.
laughed like shit?
dhen junie teach joey and rose maths so jim pei me go bck pc to see izit my turn.
laughters.
puppies! & baby voices!
ok see doc le ( gt treated by a piggy. laughs)
dhen go bck find rose and joey and junie.
more crazy laughters.
almost gt chased out.
ALMOST.
so went home larh.
b4 that we had a joke abt bras.
BURRR-AAAAHHHHH~

th nxt day th drama-rians went to watch Ollie and the Slurge.
(th bus ride was like K-Box on wheels)
oh god it was CUTE
th monsters were darn cute!
th puppeteer was cute too!
we sat at th sit jus infrnt of th DJ.
we were laughing and cheering
ok me and joker only.
cheered like cheerleaders on a screaming competition.
we sit in this order (only 4 seats)
junie joker me jim
infrnt thrs
G J B infrnt of us.
we scream they cover ears.
laughter.
it was fun while it lasted.
dhen aft that went to makan wif joker jim junie.
was super fun.
wholesome = threesome
nice joke!
friday was CRAZY i tell u.
rly cfm 100% IMH.
sch was..
dun tok abt it.
fire drill.
hotness~
anyways.
aft sch kuku fam in action larh
jason gt raped by jim (as usual )
cum jokes frm joker (as usual )
i tried to take bck present (as usual )
junie zapped me ( as usual )
aft joker left,
all 3 IMH le.
jim hit his balls on th horsey thingy in th playground (ouch?)
dhen he went mental.
keep ehehhehehe-ing.
dhen jason sit on th exerise thingy
this idian kid keep making farting noises.
jason hated it.
funny though.
junie went mental aft jim nbr recover aft so long and str to ehhehehehhe-ing along with jim and jason.
do u guys noe hw scary it is! TT
bullied.
dhen play play play...
went home.
went msia in th night
b4 tt dinner was funny
i like to tired to care
so jus wear boxers and Tee.
but hw i noe they go restaurant!
dhen nbm
joker jim junie and jason smsed wif me
keep making me LOL.
dhen this uncle ask me:
xiao mei mei can dun laugh so loud?
i laughed louder.
nbm la
i noe i look chio in boxers and T cos...
i go toilet tt tym
no parents ryte?
no uncle and auntie ryte?
no brother ryte?
dhen this teen ask me for my number.
i totally almost LMAO larh!
funny lor
i was in BOXERS AND TEE in a fucking resturant!
looooosseeerrr.
i was like total mm aft my mom glare at me for th 100th time for LOLing too loud.
so...
guy: can i have ure no?
me: gt bf liao (giving th fuck off look)
guy: fwens larh. dun liddat.
me: look in th mirror ( note: we re outside th toilets. thr gt mirror. )
dhen go msia.
super sian.
missed my kuku fam
SAT was boring.
ok
seriously
no kuku fam no fun.
2day...
woke at 9. idk why
shock wake de.
dhen go prepare mit jason sayhao and junie in J8 mac.
reach at abt 955 dhen walk walk walk find food.
dhen go lib eat.
yes.
in lib.
eat.
dhen later i was ps-ed by junie
she go buy things.
jason and sayhao go 4th floor do work with their gp.
dhen took alot pics.
tmr post.
dhen jim and junie and alien came pei me.
jim look damn cute with th new haircut.
i laughed.
ok so played ard.
went tuition.
jim pei me go larh.
dhen he went bck
junie str to send me "HOBO" smses
lols.
at tuition toked wif adrian abt poly and jc.
hais.
adrian i wil jy de!
(oh tt reminds me. sat i noe this new guy called adrian due to jim)
anyways....
went bck to lib.
had more fun.
NEW FAMILY MEMBER: ALIEN!
thats all for 2day.
BABY! ;D